Sunday Morning At Jess's

Good morning blog. It's Sunday morning. Spent most of the weekend at Jess's. I was really looking forward to it, but let's just say that it wasn't that great of a weekend. I should have known ahead of time that it was going to be rough.

Moods, distance, isolation, feeling lonely even when you aren't alone and with very few laughs and smiles. One redeeming thing was our Saturday late afternoon make-up sex. Jess said it was perhaps the hottest we ever had in nine months. That's funny, possibly because it was the first time Jess relaxed and let himself get into the fantasy of being with others, especially others that he secretly desires, thinks about, wants! He spent most of the time with his eyes closed, and calling out a few names of other guys, like his supervisor at work and also about Bjorn! Yes, that's right, eyes closed he fantasizes aloud about Bjorn! I actually think Bjorn, and the taboo of thinking about him while I knew he was thinking about him and as I listened, was what gave Jess the mind blowing experience. To be fair, I did tell Jess to let his mind drift and that it was okay for him to drift off into his fantasy! He did and I cannot hold it against him.

Got to run, Jess is literally sitting 6 ft from me. Happy Mothers Day. I'll talk more later about all this. I have so much to say!