Setback

I was all set to begin blogging again on May 1st.  But, life has once again kicked me in the ass, but this time its not just a kick; it's a complete beating. As many of you know, Jess, the man in  the center of the saddest story of my life; the man who wrote me a goodbye email last July; the man who has not seen me or uttered a word or responded to any of my attempts to reach-out to him; the man that I still love and miss more than anything... is leaving NYC. My friend Mary told me Saturday night that she has been avoiding telling me for fear it will push me off the edge. The sadness is that Jess is packing soon to totally move out of NYC and will be relocating to the Middle East. He has taken a work assignment there. So, sometime between May and June, Jess will leave and the chances of speaking or re-conciliating our friendship will be over. I know he is leaving for reasons related to work, but the fact that Jess is leaving for good is killing me, again as usual.