Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Oh, And Here's What Happened With Scott.
As soon as I got there (around 9:15pm), Scott was waiting for me by his front door. Uh, anxious much? I was in the house for no more then fifteen minutes when he said, "hey, lets go upstairs". Oh brother, here I go. Only reason why I wasn't out the door was because I always liked Scott and had a great time with him when we met a last year (July 4th 2009). I've been lonely and feeling that some attention would do me good.
Okay, so we played. Nothing heavy, nothing involved, nothing crazy. I probably would have enjoyed myself had I been able to get Jess off my mind. I kept telling myself that I am sure that Jess was doing the same thing with others so I might as well too. I wasn't really into it at all. Especially wasn't when the phone rang and Scott told me that he had to answer it. He took the call in the other room as I lay there on his flowery bed thinking, "what the fuck am I doing here". I looked around the room and I could swear that there were feminine touches everywhere. Then I saw a photograph on the dresser of him and a woman. Oh fuck, is he married?? He is one of those, I think.
When he came back to the room and was done with his call I asked him. "Scott, are you married". He hesitated and after a stammer or two he said, "yes". I asked why didn't you tell me? I had so many questions! But Scott clearly didn't want to discuss it. Scott is a married man on the down low with a wife and two kids! Oh fuck! Just what I don't need.
Shit! I was totally shocked but didn't want to ask a lot of questions since he and I only met that once a year ago. I just wanted to be done and be gone. And in fifteen minutes we were done and we lay there together on the bed talking about his new job, endlessly. All I could think about was that this dude is married! Trust me when I tell you that I really did not think or plan or want anything to happen with regards to a dating situation with Scott and I. But married, thats a whole other thing! He kept talking about his new job and I never asked him another thing about his wife and kids, etc. I didn't want to know any more! I just wanted to go.
Which I did. I said thanks and he said, lets keep in touch and I said sure thing. Then I was gone. All I could think about was that I missed Jess. I am so sorry Jess! I love you!