So How Do I Go On?

I keep asking myself that question. How do I move on from Jess? I don't think I can, especially not right now. I miss him so much. I see him and hear him and touch him in my mind constantly but I ache for him in real life. I don't think I will ever get over him. The pain of not speaking with him or seeing him or even communicating with him (email or text) has me sick with grief. Will I ever speak to him again? This is so sad!  My heart is broken. Forgive me for writing my feeling down here in my blog. Jess was the love of my life!