It's been raining and gray and dreary in NYC for days and days. It seems like God is crying with me. I am thinking about you Jess, as I do all the time. You would think that after all these months I would have gotten used to this pain by now. But...I haven't even come close to begin healing yet. All I keep thinking is how I will love you forever. My heart will always be broken, actually more then broken - torn to pieces, as it has been for the past ten months. But, I won't give up hope that you and I will speak again one day and that I will hold you again and look into your beautiful eyes again. But in the meantime, I am doing my best to move on and forget. But, as you must already know Jess, I am not able to forget and moving on is the most painful thing I have ever experienced in my entire life. I haven't seen you or heard your voice or touched you in ten months. I'm as confused today as I was ten months ago when you wrote and said "goodbye." I don't understand what happened. Please, Unbreak My Heart! If love matters, if love counts, if love is good and if love is strong... then I will see you again one day. I love you Jess!
1 comment:
I'm going to say that after ten months, there should be some light showing.
You really need to talk to someone about this, dearest. Someone who can help you find the sunshine again that's always there for you, you just need to see it.
Without wishing to sound harsh, it sounds like Jess is moving on with his life, and it's time for you to do the same.
Get some support that you can trust, whether it's a friend, a counsellor, or someone on the end of a phone who can listen and advise, and start lifting your head towards the sky once more. It's time to remember wonderful, amazing YOU, not injured, sad, co-dependant hlaf of you.
You're amazing, beautiful and brilliant. you just need to see it. With love and respect, Dale. x
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